this is not something you ever imagine will happen. and i didnt think this would make such an impact on my day because i havent followed liam as a fan for a while now, but i curled up on te staffroom couch and cried like a baby. a piece of my 10 year old self has died with him. grief is grief no matter what form.
This one hit really hard for me. I was in high school when One Direction became a band & they helped me get through both high school and College. I was an huge directioner. Even years later I still love them. Liam was always my favorite, my #1 from the very beginning. It was LILO for me (Liam & Louis), but Liam was the one I loved so much. Thank you for putting into words what I’m feeling of like never met them, but having an emotional connection to them. 🥺💔 I still have the midnight memories poster above my bed. It doesn’t feel real. When I first saw the news it popped up as breaking news on my phone, I got chills. It didn’t make sense. I couldn’t wrap my head around it. I kept thinking, he just reunited with Niall recently. This can’t be real. He’s too young (2 years younger than me) & just celebrated his birthday a couple months ago. I was speechless & couldn’t process it. I thought please tell me this isn’t real. Hopped on Instagram hoping it wasn’t real, but it was everywhere. I couldn’t believe it. I was completely shocked. My heart hurts so much & been crying ever since. My heart is heavy. So many emotions. His voice was my favorite including when he went solo.
I can’t claim to be a one direction fan (they came around during my emo phase), but as a fan of my own things I feel incredibly sad for what the fans must be going through. We are made of every part of us we’ve ever been so it might be 13/ 14/ 15 year old you’s heart breaking along side yours right now. To have that part of childhood that is so happy and pure flipped around to grief is incredibly complex. Love to you all
I don't want to overlook or excuse his harmful behavior when he was alive but it's devastating to look back at when Liam was still a kid, incredibly naive and ambitious. The potential to overcome this toxic bubble he found himself in will now never happen and I find it incredibly heart breaking and tragic.
I remember the day the world lost Robin Williams, I grieved near as hard as I have for those I’ve known intimately. This grief is real and tough. Sending hugs to all who cared about Liam in any capacity. Loss is loss and it is heavy ❤️
this news hit in such an odd way. like you, I haven’t been following his career. I am in a completely different stage of life than when I loved the band, live in a different location, have different friends. but when I found out, I was transported back to another version of me, one who cared so deeply about a band and the community it created. it’s strange. thank you for your words!
This is such a weird nuanced grief to experience with everything coming out about him recently. Thank you for touching on that.
of course x
"Just because you never spoke to them doesn’t mean they didn’t in some way speak to you" is such a beautiful way to put it. ❤️❤️
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this is not something you ever imagine will happen. and i didnt think this would make such an impact on my day because i havent followed liam as a fan for a while now, but i curled up on te staffroom couch and cried like a baby. a piece of my 10 year old self has died with him. grief is grief no matter what form.
exactly my angel 𓆩♡𓆪
Thank you for putting to words to this big, weird, empty feeling 🥹☹️ xx
thank you for reading my angel girl x
Crying reading this. Sending hugs to you all, 1D fam. Feels like a part of me has been ripped out. 🫂
I love you xxxx
thank you, a much needed read in the midst of these intense emotions x
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This made me feel a lot better after people invalidating my sadness towards this, thank you <3
you're valid my angel!
Thank-you for posting this. I needed it to help me! You are a shining light for fangirls.
it's such a gift to be here with my fellow fans xxxxx
This one hit really hard for me. I was in high school when One Direction became a band & they helped me get through both high school and College. I was an huge directioner. Even years later I still love them. Liam was always my favorite, my #1 from the very beginning. It was LILO for me (Liam & Louis), but Liam was the one I loved so much. Thank you for putting into words what I’m feeling of like never met them, but having an emotional connection to them. 🥺💔 I still have the midnight memories poster above my bed. It doesn’t feel real. When I first saw the news it popped up as breaking news on my phone, I got chills. It didn’t make sense. I couldn’t wrap my head around it. I kept thinking, he just reunited with Niall recently. This can’t be real. He’s too young (2 years younger than me) & just celebrated his birthday a couple months ago. I was speechless & couldn’t process it. I thought please tell me this isn’t real. Hopped on Instagram hoping it wasn’t real, but it was everywhere. I couldn’t believe it. I was completely shocked. My heart hurts so much & been crying ever since. My heart is heavy. So many emotions. His voice was my favorite including when he went solo.
Lilo forever xxx
I can’t claim to be a one direction fan (they came around during my emo phase), but as a fan of my own things I feel incredibly sad for what the fans must be going through. We are made of every part of us we’ve ever been so it might be 13/ 14/ 15 year old you’s heart breaking along side yours right now. To have that part of childhood that is so happy and pure flipped around to grief is incredibly complex. Love to you all
love you xxx
I don't want to overlook or excuse his harmful behavior when he was alive but it's devastating to look back at when Liam was still a kid, incredibly naive and ambitious. The potential to overcome this toxic bubble he found himself in will now never happen and I find it incredibly heart breaking and tragic.
absolutely agree to all of this x
I remember the day the world lost Robin Williams, I grieved near as hard as I have for those I’ve known intimately. This grief is real and tough. Sending hugs to all who cared about Liam in any capacity. Loss is loss and it is heavy ❤️
Love you xxxx
You are the reason I know Liam Payne. My heart hurts for you and all of his fans and the people so close to him through life.
From my generation, it was Michael Jackson and Jerry Garcia. Both were far from perfect. But it hit hard and hurt harder.
My heart aches for all the people that were close to him.
Keep writing Luce. It makes it all a little easier. xox
Aw I LOVE You x
thank you for that! it’s so important to find people that can share the same feelings of shock about this whole thing. :(
we've got each other xxxx
I feel so empty inside. One Direction were so important for me during my teen years.
They were the soundtrack of my life. I'm a boy and I was made fun of for listening to 1D but I never stopped.
Thank you for this Luce, you always make me feel so validated. 🤍
making you feel validated is my life's quest - I love you! x
Love you too! ✨
this news hit in such an odd way. like you, I haven’t been following his career. I am in a completely different stage of life than when I loved the band, live in a different location, have different friends. but when I found out, I was transported back to another version of me, one who cared so deeply about a band and the community it created. it’s strange. thank you for your words!
absolutely agree with all of this x